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Wed, Oct. 20th, 2004, 08:35 pm
uncptrdpassion: Nudity and it's place...a phobia?

Ok, maybe it's not a phobia, but possibly a HUGE hang up. Has anyone had the problem with nudity? What I mean is, have panic attacks knowing that "strangers" will be leering and jeering at your body that they have no right to be seeing anyway?

I experience major panic attacks when even talking about it and have found that it gets worse with age. Even if I am scantilly clad or otherwise hidden behind shear material, I am disgusted and humilated at the idea that certain "undesirable" individuals will see me vulnerable and haven't earned the right nor the trust from myself to see me in that state. I break down in shakes, feel light headed and even close to fainting at the very thought of this happening to me.

Does anyone else have any similar experiences? Have any of you overcome them? How? And was this something you have always had, or did this start after a tragic experience?

Thanks for your input...

Sat, Jan. 22nd, 2005 04:23 am (UTC)

Im new here, but I had a thought for you...
Is it necessary to be placed in a situation that you are this uncomfortable with? If its causing you panic attacks (something I am *quite* familiar with), I would seriously consider keeping your playtime (or asking Master to keep your playtime) to more private events.
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Fri, Mar. 25th, 2005 08:08 am (UTC)
uncptrdpassion: Re: Your fears....

You were right. The relationship ended the day I put myself to the test in hopes of overcoming these fears. I was unable to conqure the problem and did it because I thought I could and I promised him that I would attempt it. I failed myself and him, but at the same time, paid dearly as I felt as if I comprimised my ethics by doing it. Meanwhile, 4 weeks later, I am trying to heel and find a way to regather my thoughts and re-establish some sanity. Thank you for your input.