I've recently discovered, much to my surprise, that I am extremely titillated by the BDSM lifestyle...Movement?...Life? See, I don't even have the terminology right, and I don't want to look too stupid or be offensive. Coupled with this is the fact that I'm not a kid, and used to think I was way past the experimenting phase.
Guess it's never too late.
All this started when I was invited as a guest to a Black Rose gathering in D.C. a short while back. I was immediately struck by how compelling some of the scenes were -- I found myself really turned on by it, though I was just an observer.
Thing is, I have no idea what to do with my sudden fascination -- I don't live in D.C. or I would join Black Rose and find out if this is really something I'm into. I mean, I don't know if I am a dom or a submissive, or....terminology fails yet again, as I seek the correct word for one who may enjoy both....ends of the whip, I should say, perhaps.
Any suggestions on where to go, what to do, who to talk to, to get more involved so I can find my way around, maybe find some answers? I'm nervous of being scoffed at for being on the upward side of 40 and just now checking things out for myself.
So....ideas? Help? Comments? I would appreciate any thoughts y'all have.